December 25, 2002
i need to pray more than anything...
the fact that i'm leaving for spain in less than two days is setting in, i think. a ton of different emotions just keep rushing through me. on one hand, i'm so ready to go, on the other, i'm "scared poopless" (to borrow a phrase from my friend jordan, who's going into the air force in two weeks). i'm more anxious and excited than anything. it's going to be weird, though, very weird. i think i'll have changed a lot when i get back.
"ensename, oh Senor, tu camino; andare en tu verdad; unifica mi corazon para que tema tu nombre. te dare gracias, Senor mi Dios, con todo mi corazon, y glorificare tu nombre para siempre. porque grande es tu misericordia para conmigo, y has librado mi alma de las profundidades del seol."
December 22, 2002
i can't believe i leave for spain on thursday. i feel really stressed. i'm always really stressed right before i do something huge like this (because it happens so often to me, you know). i've been visiting tons of people lately. it's been great to see some friends i haven't seen in months, but it has drained me both emotionally and physically. i still haven't decided what book to bring to spain with me. i bought a spanish Bible for $5. if my pack doesn't weigh too much, i may decide to bring les miserables.
oh, if you want to attempt to communicate with me during january, send e-mail to firstname.lastname@example.org. ("peregrino" in spanish means "pilgrim." clever, no?) i should be able to get internet access at cafes and whatnot.
i've been getting a lot of headaches lately. i must have a lot on my mind.